Monday, January 19, 2015

2,443,567 hits so far... and 1,000 a day

yet so few comments.

xx

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I think the problem is that we've been dormant for so long that it's become a feedback loop.

Now only the creepy among us write fiction or make pics anymore. Now the most on-topic "doll" places are Tumblrs where ladies dollify themselves more or less on their own separate from whatever's left of ASFR.

I'll be the first to admit I'm part of the problem. I have a mood disorder, can be a real flake and this undermines my motivation to actually DO stuff in general, never mind the dolling. In all fairness though?

It's been ages since anyone's BEEN my science project. Women don't let me put them under anymore. They have to be all about "roleplay" and other things where they can take a powder and disappear at a moment's notice. Or less.

And my PC died entirely this past summer, power supply issues. So I've LOST 99 percent of my hypnotic material, and the Chromebox Potato I'm on the internet with now? Only reads things in .pdf, .doc and .docx formats--it takes a separate app "in the cloud" to actually convert other formats, in essence making the whole business of getting copies of my scripts back VERY insecure.

So it's become nearly all-risk and no-reward at my end, even by my usual messed-up pathetic standards. It would almost be easier to find a doll now in real life--and we know what the odds of THAT are for a loser like me.

I'm sorry though. I am. I don't want to be a burden. I admit I can't write for shit lately. And I admit that I'm lonely, bitter, angry and really not in the mood for jumping through all of the usual hoops, especially since I can't get Trillian to run on this thing, and since Web Messenger is FUBAR lately.

I'm kaput. Stopped, even by my standards. And nobody cares. Oh well.

Brad P.